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Monday, February 09, 2009

~Sad~

Things are just piling onto me...one after and other and no matter how strong I am, I wonder how much longer... I can take it...

I really do not know what to do... what went wrong... my fren say I though I have a strong character but I am too innocent...maybe I am... I really am... I got backstab by everyone... even the ones I love.... this is so sad so sad....

I cant believe I am actually going though the trough period and I mean really trough period for the first time of my life now... Basicially what one wants to have are lost overnight....hopes.... dreams... crashes after so many years of accumulation.... motivation diminishing....

what should I do, what should I do....

I hv to move on... I noe but... where do I get the strength from... where...

There is nobody there....???

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

~Some Updates (Work, Studies, Life)~

Its been such a long time...since my last post....

Studies
Yes I have went back to school hehe... :) School is great, I am currently doing a part-time post grad Asia Pacific Marketing at NUS extension. Well it is really challenging and it really keeps me busy with all the assignments and projects....maybe because I dun have a marketing background to start with.

But I really enjoy the course... I guess it brings me out of my "engineer world" and gives me a new perspective towards marketing, advertising, human reaction etc... must really thank my lecturer Donald Tan...

Yap I had also went for the WDA Certified Service Professional Course... though some of the things taught are things I noe or common sense but... its gave me a new perspective in working in the service sector and it actually further enhance my thinking that yes "customer are always right"

Work
As miserable as ever haha... sometimes I even wonder why I am caught in this situation...

Applying my work portfolio to something learnt from my marketing course on portal 5 forces (if you are in a weak position in most of the 5 forces below, you should exit):

Bargining power of buyer: strong so my position is weak (so many other organization seeking sponsorships that my buyer can choose from at no switching cost)

Bargining power of supplier: strong-that will refer to my support team, so my position is weak again (people here just dun work or rather dun care about the sponsorship amount bring in as they can just draw the money from the company and they see no point of fulfilling what was promised to the client which made my job really difficult everyday...)

Rival Competition: Strong so my position is weak (so many more established organization out there seeking sponsorship)

Subsittute Product availablilty: Strong so my position is weak (there are so many other forms of advertising than sponsorship which might be more effective and attractive than my sponsorship package offer)

Threat of new entrant: strong so my position is weak again (with the advertising world revolving, new entrant of new forms of advertising space are bound to occur...)

With 5 weak positions.. it is of no doubt that I should exit.....


Job Search
Fruitless.... or rather should say I too picky initally...

With a few 3k plus job offers with addtional benfits such as commission etc...which mount to 4k ...last year October and I reject (due to small company, prospect etc)... must blame myself for the "stupidiness" or rather my "ignorant" of the news that the economy will be so bad that the current job offer for me is more than 500 lesser than my current pay....

It now seems like any companies is better than my current one haha...good lessons learnt I guess that all comapny have prospect in someway or another.

With studies and everything... guess really not left much time for job search...will jiayou when have the time....or may...i should quit all together....


Overall
A New Year.... I believe that it will be a good start for me....busy studies to divert my attention to my S*** work and perhaps new opportunities for me.... in work and in life.

Thinking back, I am really quite happy of what I have achieved... in the past 1 year... being able to save enough to clear my ntu school loan, my driving lesson course, my current school fees (a total of close to $30,000), managed to go though a certification course and start a post grad course.

I am going to continue to strive harder.... I am so determine to pick out all that I had lost/ behind others.. to CLIMB UP to where I want... I am not going to continue staying at a place with no purpose, no prospect and no chance of learning.

I am so going to pick up golf, driving, increase my alcohal intake limit, read business books and world news for my future career.

I believe that 2009 will be a good year for me ahead! :)