~Sad~

Things are just piling onto me...one after and other and no matter how strong I am, I wonder how much longer... I can take it...

I really do not know what to do... what went wrong... my fren say I though I have a strong character but I am too innocent...maybe I am... I really am... I got backstab by everyone... even the ones I love.... this is so sad so sad....

I cant believe I am actually going though the trough period and I mean really trough period for the first time of my life now... Basicially what one wants to have are lost overnight....hopes.... dreams... crashes after so many years of accumulation.... motivation diminishing....

what should I do, what should I do....

I hv to move on... I noe but... where do I get the strength from... where...

There is nobody there....???